Me reading something I wrote specifically to bring myself pain: 

-Galaxian-

Someone has gotta run a statistical analysis on how many times the story makes us beat up Hektor for no reason
I've counted at least 5 times I've had to beat him up, including in random event farming quests, Okeanos (which is technically his one story pass; every Servant someone likes has to show up in main story and be an enemy, everyone knows this), that Amazon event, at least two CQs, and now this one
Someone give the guy a break xD no wonder he can't quit smoking

GalaxianExplosion wrote:

HAHA WE HAVE TO BEAT UP HEKTOR AGAIN, WHAT IS UP WITH F/GO STORY

-Galaxian-

END MY MISERY. WHY DOES THE HANDS OF FATE ONLY LEAD ME TO VIOLENCE TOWARDS MY MOST BELOVED? TOWARDS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MAN?

I am personally going to fight the Fate Company

The mental image of Oblivion driving a golf cart at unsafe speeds and yoinking Akuma off the top is hilarious, too bad I can't draw [Oblivion but also in general]

-Galaxian-

A grudge I have against writing specifically is that I am literally never satisfied when I finish writing anything that isn't just a few notes (and by "a few" that just depends on inspiration, like for no inspiration "a few" is like 1-5 while with inspiration it's something like 15 pages of random rambling). I bet if one day I could finish writing a short story in one go I would still feel no sense of fulfillment whatsoever.
At least with drawing I have those in-between moments of liking a stroke or liking a part of the coloring I did or that twinge of pride at seeing a sketch or semi-finished product. For writing it is pure loathing and/or self-doubt for the entire duration of the process and then empty disappointment at the end. Suggestions for correcting this would be immensely appreciated

-Galaxian-

What did they do to HYXHN's most handsome guy noooooooo

(Btw the only reason I call him the most handsome guy is because he randomly appeared in one of my dreams along with Kiaane and the two of them collectively pwned me so hard I woke up and couldn't do anything except try to imprint the dream into my brain and write it down somehow. Otherwise I have no way of quantifying how handsome the series' male characters are well for one most of them have wives who can fight so) 

I like how for a moment I was viewing the main cast in an entirely different light (btw the main cast wacky) and then I remembered, "曾经年少轻狂，无不可行，才知人终有穷尽。” and then pretty much died inside
I just JIFFSDJOFSDJIO. 
This series' songs don't miss, except that one song that plagiarized so badly that even I could hear it. Not the series' fault though. I think.

-Galaxian-

I think it's an universal experience that when tests feel easy it also feels like you might've done terribly

Tbh it's not even my fault how forum!Galaxian is so stupid. If you look at the Wayback Machine, every time my posts can be seen, they're always the most stupidly formatted ones. Like why can't my saved post history just have the more typical roleplay thread posts xD why do they have to be so cringe. Whyyyy

-Galaxian-

I also do wonder how my habit of typing that -Galaxian- signature at the end of my posts was and is perceived. It's one of those things where I know people notice it and probably wonder about it but rarely ask me about it directly. 
I also know it's kinda cringe but, y'know, I gotta do what I gotta do. I gotta cringe everyone to death

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion wrote:

I also do wonder how my habit of typing that -Galaxian- signature at the end of my posts was and is perceived. It's one of those things where I know people notice it and probably wonder about it but rarely ask me about it directly. 
I also know it's kinda cringe but, y'know, I gotta do what I gotta do. I gotta cringe everyone to death

-Galaxian-

 
Tbh I always forget the signature is there for some reason. Other than that, I feel like it would be weird if your signature wasn't there XD

Found out that in Chinese people just call the different Master-Servant pairs using the same formula
Basically: One character summarizing the class + Master + Servant
For instance, the Saber team would be: 剑主从 (sword Master and Servant)
The Archer team is 弓主从
(I think the Rider team goes by 骑组 instead but I keep just seeing the Saber and Archer pairing names lol so I dunno)
The thing is if I take off the Servant part for the Archer pairing I just get 弓主 for "Archer's Master," which is pronounced "gongzhu," the same as "princess" (in Chinese, 公主）

Princess Dion confirmed xD

Archer starts calling his Master "Your lordship sir princess the second most majestic"

I always wonder how cognizant other people are of their emotions
For me there's always that delayed effect that I've described before for negative emotions, and for happiness it's kinda a void usually. It disappears fast too when I do realize it. 
The most consistent setting for happiness is when there's no one around, and I'm walking in the rain. Like today.
Negative emotions are really hard to pinpoint for me. When I'm super triggered or something I'll know it, but otherwise it takes a long time to set in.
I think I need to just start running more. It always seems to help. I find it funny how exercise is basically the definition of "smiling through the pain," but in a good way. 
I also am gonna borrow a bike next week :D I got the weekend to figure out where I wanna go with it. 

-Galaxian-

Wanna make a bet on whether forum!Galaxian will kill me through being funny or literally first?
I don't.

-Galaxian-

That's why I love it. It's the truth

-Galaxian-

Also after what I think is like...5 years of waiting? I finally got to finish the Saintia Sho series.
Let's just say, Shaka and Mu ain't ever beating the allegations.
Everyone in the Chinese fandom already called Mu Shaka's girlfriend. Finally getting up and fighting after seeing Mu struggle when normally you just sit around waiting to make a cooler entrance just doesn't help.
I love how SS simultaneously manages to be the most un-shippy work I've come across so far but also the most shippy one as soon as you turn your brain off. Just...don't think about it too hard.

-Galaxian-