Time wrote:

On a totally different random note, do any of you guys know of and good shows/books/any stories with large main casts? Like, the main "team" has like 10 or so characters or something. And all the characters still get development and stuff.
 

uhh do you want a video game recommendation/example? I know a series that has a very large main cast [more than 10] but the games are pretty long 
The thing with a big main cast is that chances are, not everyone has an equal opportunity to shine but for me that's fine as long as they get some time in the spotlight

I've been pondring my decreased activity.

I think it's just bc I'm busy during the summer as well, but sometimes I just forgor about this place existing for a bit. Maybe it's due to fascinations of video games I'm looking forward to play to rn.

I just should check my feed here more often though.

I'd be sad at myself if I did too.

Sometimes stuff stays hidden in memories for years lol I relate

Ok Galaxian, you did indeed have the right vibe or info or guess or whatever on me, because yes I am doing a sciency program over the summer.

I'll be doing things and stuff for about a month. Idk if my activity will increase or decrease while I'm there.

Ah, thank you Galaxian, but I should be fine and be back at some point. But yes I hope your summer goes well too!

Just have been lying in bed the whole day

Oomph. Sending you good wishes! Be sure to rest up, stay hydrated, and all that jazz. Hope you get better soon!

-Galaxian-

Nice! That's good to hear.
Try not to spend too much time on a screen. I know I'm one to be speaking but xD, I hear it's better for you that way.
Sending digital soup! 

-Galaxian-

I totally forgot it's almost my birthday lol.

Thinking of it. Its kinda sad.

Most of the times my birthday passed for me as more or less a normal day in the summer. I didn't really care much for it or savored it. Especially the more "landmark" birthdays. I didn't really do anything. I didn't really ask for any emotional presents or anything of the sort. And I think that's mostly good, since I usually don't want any  uneeded stuff cluttering my space. But now it kinda feels a bit sad when you don't have any thoughtful gifts you use everyday. I kinda wished I did at least a little something as well.

I wish I could do a little something this one too, but I'm not going to. I'll be in my special little program by then and I'll be spending all of it away from friends and family. I'll be the first Birthday I spend "alone". I put quotations because I ofc there will be other people there, but I wouldn't really know them.

Usually I like being alone, but at times it kinda sucks. Like at fieldtrips, you don't have anyone to hang out with or laugh with. Or in video games, you can't play any co-op or team games really. Overall, it sometimes feels like you just make less memories.

I think that may be the crook of it. I don't make very many memories. Or at least very many that you could reminisce with others about. And maybe bdays are becoming a little bit of a reminder to me that I haven't really made as much as I could have. Of course this may be all speculation and in reality I do make the normal amount of memories a person makes for my age.

But yeah that's my theory that my upcoming birthday makes me feel a bit down. Alone, no special gifts/uneventful, and memories.

I realize in my special program I will literally have no free time at all so nothing but.

I feel kinda pissed that I'll have zero free time. I'm going to see what I can push and get away with. I feel i'll not be alone, so it'll be fun.

Or maybe in the info stuff they were appearing Strict so that in the actual thing, they just can have more a favorable setting, and will loosen up a slight bit.

That is true. It's just I'm worried that there will be too much of doing something for me. I observed I get really easily drained, grumpy and whatnot when I'm doing lots of things and while I'm constantly busy. Or maybe that was simply because I was being dragged around by a extended family member doing activities that I didn't really care for. Or maybe it was all of the out of the blue decision making.

Oh yeah. That's the thing. I was planning to do stuff I find fun on my own time. That's what I normally do during my freetime. But apparently it's going to be so busy it's more or less going to be getting up, then academic stuff, then other random stuff, then go to sleep, and then repeat. With barely anytime for yourself in between, or at least that is what they say. I feel like that is some exaggeration since ofc there will be small amounts of downtime like preping for bed, meals, traveling of any sort, but they basically said you will be getting little to no time whatsoever to yourself and you will not be enjoying any of your other hobbies.

I do try to keep an open mind, but it's easier said than done. Especially when the q&a zoom webinar felt more like a long list of what you can't do.

*insert snide comment on how schools/academic things is equivalent to prison*

When I'm going to be at that summer program I've been talking about I won't be able to use digital art to draw. I don't think I'll have enough time.

Now normally this wouldn't be a big deal, but I usually need to draw to help envision characters and locations when it comes to their design. And I've been in a creative mood.

I'm so sad 

First day at summer program, it'll last for a while. Let's see how it goes!