That friend was a prime example of why I make characters who show how sad it is when people who would've been nice were raised in less than ideal conditions and became disgusting human beings
I pity who he would've been

-Galaxian-

My childhood 'traumas' mostly come in the form of "why did certain adults find it pertinent to bully a tiny little kiddo who didn't do them wrong as a method of...'coping'??????"
Moral trauma, not too much mental trauma, though I'll say my personality drastically changed from said moral experiences lol. Good for me, young me was naive and dumber than present me so I call that a win instead. Morally though, sometimes I wish I could be dumber
Rai is actually morally more innocent than me. I hope he doesn't have to go through moral trauma (: .

-Galaxian-

Notice of sorts?
I'm not gonna be able to respond to roleplaying threads until Friday at the earliest. Sorry for the inconvenience

-Galaxian-

The general pattern I'm seeing for my characters is the ones who look drab in the anime style look like fashion models in a more realistic one, where the ones who look really pretty in the anime style actually look more drab in the more realistic one
Huh.
Maybe it's because Hitan can't be as shiny in a realistic style, but at least he's cute xD squishable cheeks

-Galaxian-

Imagine if they spun while "falling" too
That sounds like a nightmare.
Also Nagesh why are you laughing like that

-Galaxian-

Rai and Wiley would be so screwed if they were in the real world.
I'm saying that because this year I've experienced many days where it feels like eating's just a waste of time, and while I ultimately did eat, it felt horrible.
They both kinda regard eating as a waste of time too, but hopefully CC!Wiley also recognizes his need to eat. I mean, at the essence, even GGaD!Wiley recognizes it too (and so does GGaD!Rai), it's just not so apparent and thus kind of concerning.

-Galaxian-

Wiley: I relate to the mewling despair of bathing cats
Me: what,,, what is that supposed to mean exactly

-Galaxian-

Wiley's the one who screams

-Galaxian-

I read "Go to a bank" as "Go rob a bank" from a Pinterest picture and I have rarely been so alarmed

-Galaxian-

I guess this is more of a rant that should be on my homethread but it somewhat relates to roleplaying, so yeah.
(By the way I'm not sick, my mom's not sick, this is pertaining to someone else, so don't worry as much ig)
My interpretation of family is, in fact, not as callous as my actual speech and actions regarding family (outside of my mom) is. But my speech and actions regarding it are so callous due to reality.
There is nothing more sad--well, okay, not to talk in absolutes is a good tip, so I'll say there's almost nothing more sad--than someone being sick and not telling family members about it. The sad part is because the reason for that is: Those family members don't care. Why tell them then? Maybe they might even wish you dead. And in China, that's inauspicious. Cursing someone to death and doing things like saying they're dead when they're alive is really, really bad. 

As mentioned before, this isn't my own experience, so I can say I'm more credible now. If I were sick, yeah, basically only two family members in my entire gigantic family in China would even care remotely (one of which is the one who is sick now), so even if I were in China, it'd be the same situation. Why does it increase my 'credibility'? Because that means without experiencing it myself, my view of the family is correct. Reality has proven that view. Then, that actually sick family member is in China, which means the arguments of "You aren't in China, so you're probably wrong! They don't care for you as much 'cause you haven't seen them (and vice versa) in a lot of years! You don't know them as well, maybe they do care!" is wrong. Which I expected, obviously, from the fact that I don't believe in that. 

And maybe because I hate that sad reality so, so much, and wish that reality were kinder and warmer, that I rarely try to pinpoint huge sources of angst and trauma on genuine family. Family will always have its faults, and I accept that. But when family is as disjointed and horrible as I've sometimes seen, I don't really believe that the individuals coming from that family can have as complete a development as I would wish for them. 

By the way, I know I'm a kid, and maybe a lil stupid, but I don't appreciate it when I spend hours looking at information relating to a condition when I should've been doing schoolwork/finals and then my advice is blown off/not even tried. What will it take for me to be listened to? Do I need to get a MD? Because we all know I'm a long ways off from that right now and might not even be smart enough in the first place to get one even many years from now.

-Galaxian-

Today we're gonna laugh at Wiley going "ehHhhhHHhhhhh" while somehow altering pitch every 0.1 seconds and also him going "dISGuSTING" while making a face, ig.

-Galaxian-

My mom refused to look at my drawing of Ambryll
Most satisfying moment of my day

-Galaxian-

Okay but an appreciable part of Wiley is I can make the worst jokes and he'll still laugh. Or snort. idk why he has so many variations of laughing but eh

My mom: You listened to this song yesterday iirc, why are you listening to it again
Me: Because it's my favorite song
My mom: Oh
Me, still doing math problems: And also because it sounds like despair (*snorts*)

Yeah idk but Wiley laughed at that so like. Thanks Wiley. lol

-Galaxian-

Idk why a True Neutral guy would get concerned that I started looping a murdery-vibe song but to placate him (before he could call over Raez and Rai) I put on one of Raez's theme songs
I don't understand him lol
Why does he decide to let me get along with him on the day where my sanity is toppling like a Jenga tower

-Galaxian-

Roleplaying will still be delayed while I try to get stuff off of this computer and transfer back to my dear potato. Sorry about that, guys

-Galaxian-