GGaD » Cosmic Dim. (V. XVIII), You're Correct but You're Not Right

GalaxianExplosion · October 26, 2025 21:28:41

SS AU please return to me during fall break please

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 27, 2025 01:40:33

Also a good time to mention that I found out today I'm actually allergic allergic to tobacco/vaping products, the only reason why I don't react that much most of the time is because it's outside and I get the heck away.
It's not all that surprising since I knew it was there and just didn't want to test the severity. Oh well.
The good news is that the allergy isn't severe enough to cause complete anaphylaxis (: only partial along with temporary blindness due to vision blacking out and loss of voluntary respiratory control. Plus I get very cool bloodred sclera that freaked my coworkers out.
Anyways shoutout to people who keep smoking in smoke-free areas lol. I hope they experience breathing issues at least 3 times the amount of what they inflict on others. And double that if they throw the cigarette butts onto the ground after being told that other people have asthma and that is why they're not allowed to smoke in that area

In any case, that doggo was so so cute. I'm still gushing about it lol.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 27, 2025 21:11:27

This was then followed by a 3-hour bleach lab, which I am also allergic to...
We not doing so good, fellas lol

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 28, 2025 02:11:20

Born to finish one art piece, forced to AAJFJSFJSJAAA (<-- what it feels like rn)

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 28, 2025 02:13:51

I swear to the gods, if only I had some of Wiley's talent in memorizing mechanisms, it would just be so swell :skull: but nah, instead of imparting his knowledge he just baits me with useless stuff ~~and makes my handwriting worse~~

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 29, 2025 19:09:22

In retrospect it's sort of funny how Soul of Gold seems like a swell spinoff
Like at least the Gold Saints were in-character and actually drawn rather than plastic toy models.
Okay so maybe they were just one step away from toy models, but the God Cloths had good designs imo. There was actual effort. Though maybe everyone didn't need wings...who am I kidding, of course they needed wings. They needed to beat up Loki

Guess what AU my mind wants to hyperfixate on lol

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 30, 2025 02:23:42

Doing the Grail Front event in F/GO because I don't want to propagate error
I don't think I'll finish it, but oh well.
So anyways apparently me being dead inside makes me a much better strategist. I haven't gotten a single Servant off-fielded today lol
It also helps that I have level 110 Changgong, level 100 Kagekiyo, level 100 Takasugi Shinsaku, level 100 Castoria, etc. lol. Especially level 110 Changgong. Dude soloes anyone who attacks him. I love him so much

Gacha results: I did one multi and got one more Zenobia as well as Sei <3 I love them so much.
Though I do have to say, that is one heck of a writer's procrastination lol. How many years has it been since she said she'd drop by?? I remember we met during Valentine's, but that's it.

So anyways, my goal is still to level 120 Changgong,,, I will farm the embers then I swear I will (Arknights autoplay spoiling me rotten though lol)

Also me casually skipping story for this event and fielding Jiang Ziya when he's probably an antagonist in this event or something idk:
Si Bu Xiang is SOOOO cute. Mo mo. LOOK AT HIM. HE'S SO CUTE.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 30, 2025 22:04:28

I need to organize relationship circles better in my head
I start thinking beyond the usual rings and then my brain implodes like overheated karlach.

I will endure it just to friendship Mitsuharu with a bunch of people for no reason
Also love Eugen, they're fun to think about in this aspect too. Even though idk what they're doing.
And shoutout to the Gangsta friends lol

Me trying not to think about F/DA (help help help I love Saber so much lol)

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 30, 2025 22:07:04

Love Mitsu because he always is just that one dude but also somehow gets connected to tons of different people
His networking skills are off the charts (he doesn't do it on purpose half the time lol)

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 31, 2025 02:23:55

It's that sort of night again where I'm fine for half an hour just doing work and then I just want to throw up for no reason. And then I'm fine again

I want to do fun things (ADHD screening coming up tomorrow, so ready to feel like an amogus impostor lol)

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 31, 2025 02:25:02

Funny Galaxian trivia: I was reading "carbocation" wrong for like a month
I really said "carbo-cay-shun"
I love English. ~~THEY SHOULD HAVE ADDED A HYPHEN--~~

-Galaxian-

Echowo · October 31, 2025 07:42:56

GalaxianExplosion wrote:
Funny Galaxian trivia: I was reading "carbocation" wrong for like a month
I really said "carbo-cay-shun"
I love English. ~~THEY SHOULD HAVE ADDED A HYPHEN--~~

-Galaxian-

IT'S NOT PRONOUNCED THAT WAY???

GalaxianExplosion · November 1, 2025 02:01:23

Unfortunately, its correct pronunciation is "carbo-cat-eye-on", because "carbon cation".
I mostly call it "C-cation" in my notes lol

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 1, 2025 02:12:04

Belated happy Halloween to everyone. Very spooky

So anyways, y'all wanna guess what I got from that screening
Hint hint, the result was within expectations.

So anyways, apparently because I don't have significant problems with performance on the surface, like bad grades or behavioral/drinking issues that affect work/personal relationships, it "could go either way" as to whether I have ADHD or not? But judging from the look of things, I think we're leaning toward the usual outcome lol.
In my personal opinion, the logic there is kinda iffy, but ig that's just healthcare in this country for you. If it ain't showing on the surface too much, then you're kinda screwed.
The most interesting thing that I heard was that it "might be dissociation", but I feel like I'm pretty aware of what's going on and retain everything from when I zone out. Plus, it doesn't happen when I'm stressed, it just happens randomly.
So basically, maybe I need to make up more problems with you guys with my limited attention span /j. I tried to emphasize how screwed I would be if I didn't overcompensate for everything in school/work/life, but I guess that just doesn't matter as much since lack of other issues...?
I do have to say that beyond maybe making my mind a bit more at ease, a diagnosis doesn't help me all that much. I don't want to take any medications and I compensate for a lot of things already, so even though the extra anxiety/stress is there, I pretty much know how to operate.
Is my way of operating very good? No, but it works, mostly. And hopefully next semester, being able to sleep in some days will help more too.
So that's that. Maybe there'll be another appointment in the future, but it just looks like the usual spiel. I do appreciate the person I met today since she was a lot more patient than people in psychology/social work I've met in the past, plus assessing other people is very hard. Idk tho.

I do feel like if I continue to go undiagnosed in the end, it'd be annoying for me to keep on stressing some behaviors of mine might or might not be connected to ADHD. So, I'll probably start phasing that out, though most probably, I will keep complaining about those behaviors and their consequences.

A non-update? Yeah...there we go.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 1, 2025 02:17:00

Ngl I was confused at the time why alcoholism/alcohol disorders factored into the entire thing, then I realized that people with ADHD are more likely to get those disorders along with anxiety/depression.
The thing with admitting you might have anxiety/depression though (which I don't think I have, but 2020-22 me was not doing very fine, and I have my moments still) is that it quickly turns into a slippery slope of A Lot of Other Things, like mandatory reporting and stuff. So I don't really see that going well at all.
It's kinda interesting when you look at the system as a whole.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 1, 2025 02:28:00

Btw I feel like if I had drinking/drug use issues, I would probably need counseling for that a lot more than I would need the ADHD screening.

Anyways, that's enough of that. I want to think about other things.
Like the SS AU! I just realized that Sistema and Lucille are literally the Seafood Duo (Deathmask and Aphrodite)'s counterparts, so that got me thinking on other equivalents.

The Aries and the Taurus are friends, which is neat. (I think they're friends, nothing is confirmed canonically. But I think they are. I want them to be. Pleasseee.)
The Gemini does have connections to the Cancer, Pisces, and Capricorn. Add in Aquarius if you want ig. I wouldn't say that the Aquarius, Capricorn, and Gemini are a trio, though.
The Aquarius and Scorpio are friends. Yay! But actually this just happens with my characters lol.
I like to imagine the Leo and Sagittarius have a bit of connection, but I don't think it's sibling-like at all (in terms of Aiolos and Aiolia, obviously)
The Cancer likes both of the Pisces (probably closer to Lucille tho, and idk how close they are). She and the Aries do not have beef with each other
I wouldn't call it beef, but the Leo kinda ignores the Scorpio multiversally /hj
The Libra and Aries are friends. And the Libra and Taurus are (supposed to be) friends.

All this is just me bullcrapping and cheating massively because a lot of the Gold Saints are friends with each other.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 1, 2025 02:35:43

Most crucially, the Capricorns and Sagittari...ii...do not have something weird going on between them. Katsura likes Adam and Celso a lot actually.
I don't actually know whether these people met each other (well, idk if Celso met Adam and Katsura is the thing, those two know each other for sure)
Both Adam and Katsura's predecessors lowkey got sniped by the plot ngl, canon equivalency ig /j

The Silver Saints and Bronze Saints are also fun to think about
I enjoy the state that Joaquin and Eugen exist in (they exist yet don't at the same time...this goes for their design in personality and appearance, but especially appearance)
Rn they're chewing on giant pretzels in my head and being completely silent about it. It's really hecking funny (also cathartic because otherwise Eugen buzzes around. WHY did I make a fly Saint)

Also don't let the fact that I usually just mention Joaquin and Eugen fool you. My obsession is limitless. The other day I started randomly obsessing over Amande for some reason, and by other day I mean yesterday btw. That's also connected to the Mitsuharu stuff.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 2, 2025 01:53:30

"Just because you went down the wrong path doesn't mean you're wrong for making the choice to go down the wrong path" is some of the worst logic I have seen in Fate
Like yeah it might be okay in a whitewashed context for the character it's discussing (and I get what it means--"intention is more important than consequence," "the journey is more important than the endpoint," blah blah, pretend I don't disagree with the former as well), but maybe we shouldn't have generalized these platitudes lol lmiao the WWII memes are coming

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 2, 2025 01:57:24

This Grail Front is really funny
You're just a casual Shadow Servant or normal Servant or normal monster/creature and then you see like 6 esteemed generals/royal figures from different countries and historical periods who were known to be really good at not losing. And most of them have AOE Noble Phantasms.
@Takasugi - You are the statistical outlier /j
No but seriously, you have Ptolemy and then the Prince of Lanling (never actually lost a battle on record), Minamoto no Yoshitsune (one of the most famous tactical geniuses in Japan to my knowledge), Jiang Ziya (THE strategist of China who won a war on behalf of gods),,, I'd be scared too ngl

Trying to figure out still if the drastic improvement is because of my mind's desperation to focus on anything else, my now-accumulated experience playing Arknights (much better spatial reasoning/rule understanding now), or the long inactivity in F/GO that's making me look at everything with fresh eyes

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 3, 2025 02:40:04

I keep getting kinda destroyed by my politics prof's comments on my writing :skull:
Like bro I agree, I agree. Lmiao

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 3, 2025 02:50:29

Sometimes I wonder if failing a semester would get me that hecking diagnosis
Unfortunately I have a ton of spite in me left still from backstory events so it probably won't happen..kinda curious about it tho since I have aaalll the time in the world, really. Don't I? (*typing this instead of doing homework.*)

Also registered for classes for the next semester. Honestly I'm not thinking about it at all since,,, y'know, no fall break and it's November, and I just got hecking bitten by mosquitoes AGAIN lol. I am in so much agony. But anyway, Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays will be no fun, which is much better than all days being no fun currently.
Unfortunately I'm also forced to take to take a lil break from OChem (/s [I hope that means "sarcastic"])
My spatial reasoning hecking sucks, guys.

Anywho, I have a prof who teaches biology but brought up COVID conspiracy theories in the first class of the semester. He has a thing where he likes to ignore me on purpose, so I do a thing where I ignore his questions when I feel like it
Unfortunately, we will be stuck with each other the next semester too because he's the only prof for a course I have to get done, so...I sure hope he's getting better impressions of me (I've heard the Physics prof is bad but they're the only one who teaches the course and I need to take it so lol) (what is up with the Physics folks bro)
Me when I'm a science major but suck at science (I love it sm but man)
Also now if I had a nickel for every time a science prof talked something ridiculous about COVID the first class after staring at my face mask, I'd have two nickels, which isn't much but it's weird that it keeps happening. Like I understand ordinary people not "believing in flu shots" or not knowing mRNA is but bro. You sequence genes for a living bro. Bro. Please.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · November 3, 2025 03:02:14

I don't have a favorite Linkin Park song, but I definitely have a favorite album, which is pretty funny since I don't think I've made that distinction for any other band
It's just too obvious even to myself. lol

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · Yesterday 00:54:55

The end of this event really was
(*snipes down girl with cute smile*)

Better summary:
The Heroic Spirits teach a dragon what it means to live: Living is to struggle to not die [/s]

The meaning of life is struggle as much as you can. Just because death comes in the end doesn't mean the process was futile. Humanity as a whole is a collective of the lives of many many humans who reach toward their dreams and make mistakes, but who still try their best, who hold good and bravery in their hearts, and will make amends for the wrongs they committed.

Also, "it's not wrong to want to live," and then we snipe her from the sky after she finds her answer lol. Because humans only die after finding their answer, so she has to die after she finds her answer. Lmiao

She then lets us into the friendzone after this for some reason [????? dragons are fickle]

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · Yesterday 00:56:07

We're also gonna ignore that I was as mean as possible toward her (pulled out the canon team [Jiang Ziya while maximizing the usage of Ptolemy and Sugitani] along with Lanling Wang, and Percival for the giggles)
I accidentally got Shinsaku pwned, but older Ptolemy going out was technically lore-accurate. I think. I didn't have enough spaces to fit everyone, you see.
You get Guts! I get Guts! Everyone gets Guts! (My Servants' HP was usually hanging on by the skin of my teeth)

You hurt Asterios, I hurt you.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · Yesterday 02:17:42

Jumpscared myself by overlaying (young) Moriarty's theme at the very end of the event with impeccable timing
I'm imagining Changgong scooting out of the conversation before he even became a part of it lol

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · Yesterday 21:22:24

Got cursed with the new knowledge that we get evaluated by customers and we can access those survey results online
Immediately got pwned with someone who gave me a 2 as my first review, but actually I was very nice to them (apparently), it's just stuff is too expensive
I agree that stuff is too expensive, but I've laughed for half an hour now. I can't. Literally lol

Also got someone who ranted about anyone other than me in paragraphs. Also gave me a really good laughter episode.

Anyways, we're good. I will probably ignore this knowledge for a good while now, but it's good to know. It's kinda like free laughter fuel ~~that's gonna go away immediately with the first genuine bad review so I'm gonna treasure this while I have it~~

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · Today 00:11:08

Got jumpscared by Theresis just calling me "Galaxian" instead of "Doctor" lol

-Galaxian-