Listening to upbeat music about partying while I write a form for a gloomy character

Just did a really really big reveal thing in DRPU so reminder to self to post about it here
(That said it's probably not the most origial thing but I'm proud of it)

MY BELOVED CHARACTERS CLAIRE MOON AND ALLEGRO CAMPANELLA AKSJDBSDLH

I love Yvonne's face, like, she has such a an amiable resting expression, you look at her and you can instantly see she is A Friend

Also I know I have penginding rp threads to reply to please give me some days I am experiencing a braindead moment

penguin pending

Also I love how the best thumbs up I've ever drawn is from an Among Us art

SpecterTheGreat wrote:

I know I'm currently supposed to be creating a promotion campaign for milk but I have a very strong thought in my mind that won't leave me alone about fantasy character designs and belts. and extra layers. and jacket over jacket over vest over vest over shirt over and over and over
Because for some reason I just want to draw a design with tons of belts and tons of unnecessary accesories Right Now. Just for the fun of it. And I don't feel like doing fanart either. But if I don't do fanart then there's this silly idea of a character with belts tied to their hair. 
Peak fantasy character outfit design really.

Honestly real. Designs with loads of accessories are always fun to look at, but very hard to actually create for me at least. You need to find the balance of what looks cool, and where it should go so it doesn't look overly cluttered

Speaking of Bixbite sometimes I think I should redraw this thing I did a long time ago of her figure in a stained glass window. I just think the colored crystals are very neat and they can be interpreted like gems too.
I can't do her justice in GGaD just yet but in the meantime I can draw her?

Just trying to finish my work and I suddenly get the idea of Germaine in a JJBA AU 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 man my mind really does not want me to focus on what I have to do right now. I can only take so many thoughts and creative desires before COLLAPSING pleaseeeee

Relatable.  It's like our minds don't want us to study.  Curse you randomly and well timed spurs of inspiration and creativity.  

Time wrote:

Dang just yet? How long has Bixbite been gone? That's really playing the long game huh

This brings up a topic that's been on my mind for a while and I was thinking about it while reading Ishmael's roleplay thread a while back as well.
When I first started in GGaD I think it's fair to say that I didn't have foresight for things to come, so I just went along with whatever was happening and that was okay for then. It was fun. But my characters suffered from both my wild ideas without any restraint (I literally did things as soon as I thought of them, no time to consider them carefully 💀) my taking in most suggestions too readily and applying them without thinking of possible future consequences. So now I have to deal with that.
I think I mentioned this sometime in a previous post but I don't want to to a blank slate clear on the most important characters I have from back then (Bixbite being the main example) and much less delete them from existence because I think it would be wrong to void something that younger me was very excited about and devoted effort to. And this means that if I want to continue doing something with Bix, I have to think up a way to do something that lets everything that's happened so far makes sense. There's a small issue with the CD plot basically becoming extra complicated and all and by now I think it's on indefinite hiatus. However, I have an advantage with Bix and it's that her origin with the whole CD stuff is different because it was originally going to be something else and then I latched onto the CD plot as an explanation of something I wanted to do and things just spiraled from there. So, the solution I'm going to work towards is most likely going to be something unique to Bixbite and that will let her detach from the restraints of the CD plot (if it comes up again in canon after her thing is solved, she might interact but in a different way. I've got things in mind already.) and will also let me work with her on a more personal level. 
In regards to her characterization, man, I also have to fix a bunch of things. Mostly right now I can see she's got some severe issues I piled up on her without thinking and there's the problem of her backstory having like 3-4 versions of which I'm never sure which of them is the one I'd like to use so... yup, definitely need to sort that out, haha. Plus I need to canonically define her personality more than just "literal suffering crybaby prone to incredible violence" because yeah at first I know I kept trying to portray her in a positive light and all of that, but she really... really isn't all that positive of a character, and to add to that I never showed her issues consistently. Maybe her development was botched by my forcing plot onto her. That's what I'm trying to fix currently, anyways.
The second issue with Bixbite is her character relationships. I think she's been quite a toxic character in a sense, since no matter what she did before, everything's always been about her. And that trait is something I didn't realize back in the forums, but now I can see it clearly and it can play as an interesting flaw for her future development. The way she constantly suffers about others liking her or leaving her is a weird obsession thing which can also be interesting, and I often think back to this one writing thing I posted (which was pretty good for its time imo) in which the main conflict of her character is established as fear of being forgotten and rejected. 
Except that, probably, she canonically HAS been forgotten by her acquaintances, as some 90% of these are characters played by people who have long since left the roleplay. Some remaining ones (I'm thinking GGaD!Time for this) might know her by name but she never forged any bonds deeper than that. The characters closest to Bix were GGaD!Xenon and GGaD!Bengal and haha,,,welp. Even then there's a handful of other characters Bixbite  interacted with during the wiki era in my attempt to bring her back and that could be a good start for new relationships. She definitely needs that.
In a way, I see this not only as trying to better a character I made long ago, but also accepting and adapting the change that our forum community has gone through without immediately discarding everything that's happened before. So yeah. When I think of Bix I think of all the good times I had roleplaying her even when I was a big big noob at all of this. And I realize that the problems probably stem from the fact that, when I created her, the personality section in the form was not obligatory so I just skipped it altogether and started roleplaying a character any way I wanted without consistency. What an amazing move from my past self! I mean tbh I proabbly would've ended up ignoring whatever personality I wrote then anyways xD. 
I suppose the summary here is that I want to fix Bixbite in a meaningful way so she can be a character I'm happy with and can use in threads, because my playable deities' status is uhhhhh heeheehohohahah not good at all lol.
 

Ah. The classic: "I was a novice at telling a characters story and I want to better represent them. Plus character relationship gridlock". I definitely feel such things.

Well, please do know that I can always try and help out if you do reach out. As you mentioned I have Time still around, plus if you want to do the CD plot, I can always work something out tbh since I have Senshei and (less relevant but still) Oblivion.

Analyzing both dudes and my conclusion is that Xaphan is adorable and deserves a good friend circle but Emmot should die, literally why am I keeping him alive this is like a torture to him

Staring at my current pfp because I wanted to change it to a version of SS Hades but I don't have time to image dive right now so I'm just kinda killing time and stuff (wow this makes so much sense)
Anyways putting this here because I realized that I've been making Specter's skin darker and darker over the years??? Like, they were never supposed to have fair skin ofc but it's just that the hue seems to change in every piece of sketch I have saved of them. Apparently in the first sketches it was just a lil tanned. Now it's darker and I like it but I feel like it's time to set out a reference for myself (or just find one of the colored sketches that suits the way I view Specter)
I haven't drawn them fully in quite a while as well, I remember killing my maroon-colored marker just because of how much I used to color their coat. The minty shirt and maroon coat are still like peak color design in my mind even though it's not an usual color combination and I really wish I could remember what was going on in my mind when first designing Spec because I feel like I need that for current designs. Dug up so many cool drawings of them and their chains too I look forward to doing a redraw of those uhhhh someday Ig.

On another hand I do love the maroon coat because it's just a staple of Specter and it fits in perfectly with the red/maroon crewmate color Among Us thing.