GGaD » Cosmic Dim. (V. XVIII), You're Correct but You're Not Right

GalaxianExplosion · September 26, 2022 01:44:01

Hajime!

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Good news is that I have only one essay left
Bad news is that the deadline is in 48 hours
Good news is that I'm efficient at getting things done within 48 hours!
Bad news is that technology loves screwing up so really it's more 24 hours. Also the efficiency comes at the cost of homework, which I am desperately trying not to think about.

Anyways, to end with good news, I successfully cut off 50 words for this essay, so let's see how I do with the other one!
Y'know, the funny thing is I still prefer homework over writing lol. You wouldn't think I would but I do

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · September 26, 2022 01:48:29

Another piece of news: My mind decided to start making me hyperfixate on Run 24/7. So now no matter whether I'm awake or asleep, my chest feels like it's being stabbed repeatedly, which is ironic some things considered

When you're supposed to learn stuff about yourself from what you read/watch but all you get is that you really, really adore an angelic-looking dude who will cease at nothing to achieve his goals because he's a very good teacher and friend (and the concerning part is the goal-achieving part btw, not the other part. That part's justified, I think.)
In fact, I think that I actually appreciate him more due to being older now. That's nice.

I'm pulling my mom into the Run Appreciation Club too, so I mean, I guess there's the good in that as well. Also the pain I feel from his fate is making me very motivated to self-advocate for a better future, believe it or not.

Btw it feels so good to type in a place with no word limit lol, I wonder if anyone gets that feeling too

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · September 26, 2022 01:58:09

Manga vs. anime Run is really funny to analyze for me.
For example, I was thinking that anime Run is more emotional in general, but then I remembered the scene where the Jaegers split up to hunt for Night Raid, and anime Run is looking over the bandits like "hmmm" more than anything else. In the manga, he looked like he was ready to murder someone with no explanation in front of a superior and coworker.
Which also makes it funnier, since Esdeath is like "What's up?" to him regardless. She was 100% justified asking that in the manga but in the anime he's kinda just going owo, so it implies she somehow knows him better. I dunno, their relation is most likely just based on each other's usefulness, but I do find it interesting how she probably could see through him to an extent.
Oh, and the implications of Run not being very good at hiding extreme negative emotions in front of anyone he had a positive relationship with was very cute. Though I think I noticed that before.
But the aforementioned general idea I'd come up with came from how he acts in the anime. He seems a lot more detached from Kurome, but at the same time, he acts a lot more ticked off towards Night Raid when the Capital's about to fall. I guess a big part of this is because his arc is cut off in the anime, but I also like to think that it's because he was prioritizing his second goal or something like that. He goes a lil OOC nonetheless, but whatever.
Anime Run looks so cute xD. No development, just kinda there.
Btw, I feel like both the manga and anime made him do dumb things to lessen his threat (e.g. shooting feathers everywhere randomly in the anime instead of targeting specific points or even switching a vantage point, and also just...the thing he did in the manga), which is unfortunate but I will try to get over it by thinking of it as an implemented character flaw :')

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · September 26, 2022 02:12:41

Okay now onto angst
I think I've spoiled this section of the story countless times but lol

1. I actually forgot that Run made it barely past the halfway point. Very painful.
2. Found a panel where Wave is speaking about reforming the capital and found Run's feather motif that I somehow missed before FJIDSOFJDOIF
3. And thinking about Wave trying to take on Run's dream, my interpretation is that Run actually never intended for that to happen. My evidence? Too lazy to describe, but one important part is how Run demonstrated that one of his strongest wishes was to protect his friends. Him acting to lead Wave to Kurome is one example, for instance.
And I guess you could say that a corpse can't reform the Empire, so if that was one of his strongest wishes, he wouldn't be able to act on it. But let me comfort myself with this lol.
4. There are a bunch of iffy points related to him post-death that I found but I'll keep them to myself. Agony though sjfdosifsjoi
5. I want to talk about how Run could get in between Akame and Kurome when Akame was going for the killing blow and Kurome was still on really strong drugs (: and this is after him not being able to improve any after his death. He could react to a casual Esdeath but it turns out he could react to a serious Akame too even after losing most of his consciousness. ~~His final expression was 100% intended to look the way it looked like, and it brings me immense suffering.~~
6. On the note of battle competency, I also noticed how his final action was getting Tatsumi to deflect a barrage of feathers with a spear, which I think was also pretty impressive. It was another detail I missed in the past lol
7. Analyzing when Run genuinely smiled is always angsty
8. Also I keep getting reminded of how he had glasses that he just ditched casually lol
9. Also (x2) I'm questioning if his actual name is even Run at this point lol, he's definitely the kind of guy who'd forge his records and just change his name. It's so fitting for him though so I hope not
10. Okay I'll stop now xD

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · September 27, 2022 01:10:36

Essay finished!
Today is one of those days where thoughts flit through my head and utterly disappear so I don't have much to add, only that any good luck would definitely be appreciated.
Oh well. It matters a lot to me, but at this point it's out of my hands. So I'll just call it there.
Time to return to homework, uh, land!

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · September 29, 2022 13:29:06

I'm here 'cause my school computer died and I'm using my mom's computer now btw. Waiting for a replacement because this isn't sustainable lol
Definitely didn't come here because of the soup debate over on Time's homethread xD ~~it was a factor, I'll admit. I couldn't stop thinking about it for more than a few hours.~~

Gotta love how I archive PMs like I do things in general. Wait until I need to do it (message limit hit), do a little bit (970/1000 messages now), and then stop.
I can't even remember half of these happening lol.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · September 30, 2022 23:23:06

Possible trigger warning because of general war crime discussion and stuff, please be warned.

I guess this is out of nowhere, but really, the lingering resentment between the Chinese and Japanese people is a pretty complex topic.
It's one of those things where the ideal thing to think is that "It's been more than 50 years, we should move forward," but it's really not that simple because Japan refuses to acknowledge responsibility for or be open about the horrendous acts their military/leaders committed during that time, which is frankly just ridiculous. And it goes beyond just "history will repeat itself without education"; it also implies to Chinese citizens that they don't regret it at all and would do it again if given the opportunity.
I'm not saying that that's true, but with a combination of lack of education and Japanese biases against the Chinese (who in the present time do keep sending naval warships by the Japanese borders, which is annoying, but is pretty little compared to the past Japanese acts during the Sino-Japanese Wars), it definitely feels like the situation in U.S. regarding racism. We might not have the responsibility of horrid actions committed by our ancestors, but we do have the responsibility of acknowledging those horrid actions and taking accountability of them by educating our people so it doesn't happen again.
It was also fun to learn how the U.S. government granted legal immunity to people responsible for killing tens of thousands of Chinese people (and Russian, Mongolian, etc. people living in places like Manchuria) because they wanted the data got from killing said people. And it doesn't educate its people on this, either.
I dunno, have you guys heard of Unit 731? I'm sure you've heard of the Rape of Nanking/Nanjing Massacre (which has victim counts also underestimated by Japan and the U.S.), but even I just heard of it today. Freaking sickening, the things people can do for their own so-called entertainment.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · September 30, 2022 23:25:43

On another topic, we had a choice novel that was supposed to be read over the course of the semester and I finished it in one day
There is something special about having a book I can actually flip through, lol.
Anyways, it was no biggie since it was pretty short (around 300 pages), and I suck at proportioning my time so that's there too.

I now have to complain about forgetting what I wanted to say in my 3rd post. Ah well lol.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · September 30, 2022 23:35:01

Love how I remembered it, decided not to post it, tried to post about something else, forgot that too, and now am just sitting here silently

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 1, 2022 23:13:05

Tushan Xiao Hongniang has been updating pictures of the major cast/promotion posters and stuff
I have to say that the team in charge of designing costumes, scenery, and stuff like that is really good. Everything's aesthetic and generally fits the actors.
Unfortunately...the casting and general designs do not say "Fox Spirit Matchmaker" to me. They say, "cool generic wuxia film."
I think the actor for Yaya is giving me the highest hopes at the moment along with the actor for "Shiji" (I have no idea who that is but am guessing it might be the antagonist/fill-in for the Heihu Niangniang), 'cause the actors for Honghong and Dongfang Yuechu feel like they got lost and ended up in this film (Dongfang Yuechu looks like a different sort of nerd and Honghong looks Sad).
I guess I could say, Dongfang Yuechu looks like he desperately wants a sword, which might be weird to say but does fit what I'm trying to describe here. Meanwhile, Yaya and "Shiji" (again, I dunno who she actually is) do give off more accurate vibes in my opinion, so let's see if that impression holds up.
There's also a pic with some corpses and fire in the background of Dongfang Yuechu, which is pretty concerning because 1) it's corpses, corpses are pretty concerning, and 2) I can't actually think about what scene this might be :') looks concerning though.
The guy for Dongfang Yuechu with black looks like an antagonist lol, it's real funny.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 1, 2022 23:13:45

Also the other day I heard Run but in Spanish dub and got real startled xD if I had water in my mouth I definitely would've spit it out

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 3, 2022 02:20:37

Found a frame in the bandit raid where the bandits are all pointing their guns at the Jaegers and stuff, and Run's just looking down at his book like "Seriously, I was at the good part,,, did we really have to go on this mission tonight?"
It's funny 'cause everyone else is staring straight ahead at the imminent threat while he's like "the bookmark had better be there after this..."
I can imagine him being like "This is fine" the entire time since he probably wanted a strategy (inferred from him asking about it lol) and since the others can bear the brunt of the work, he honestly just wants to read now.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 3, 2022 02:24:36

Also gotta love how literally everyone else got a slice of the action while Stylish was basically just, "I made that!! <3"
that also implies that Run only bothered to act at the end because otherwise he'd be just observing the whole thing and that's also very funny to me
Honestly I didn't notice how much it feels like he doesn't want to do things before. Everyone else is super motivated (and even Stylish is enthusiastic when it comes to his experiments), and Run is kinda like. He's there. He has the motives. He'll occasionally have them surface. But mostly he'll just read and stuff lol.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 3, 2022 02:26:07

Oh yeah, Kurome in Spanish dub was hilarious too. I'm so used to her sounding like a little girl that when her Spanish voice actually sounded like a woman, I was extremely offput

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 3, 2022 02:34:46

Drew this thing for a project lol (the actual project part isn't included btw)

My hand when I want to draw characters I actually like: I sleep
My hand when I draw characters like this guy: :DDD you cALLED??

Honestly,,,
Also this doesn't count as art, in case you're wondering. It's more of a demonstration of how much my own appendages hate me.

-Galaxian-

SpecterTheGreat · October 3, 2022 11:20:04

I still think it looks really good ngl!
For a moment I was like "Hmm this seems familiar" but then I realized who it was lol

Echowo · October 3, 2022 18:52:09

OWO

GalaxianExplosion · October 3, 2022 22:00:35

Hey, thanks for the demonstrated interest!
In fact, as a token of my gratitude, I have once again set up a visual trap to destroy all of your eyes and your signature aesthetics! Enjoy! ;D
~~the benefits of being on this forum lol, you get an extremely incompetent admin who has a very unique variation of aesthetic blindness~~

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 4, 2022 19:19:24

Sometime this week I made a comment on a video that just absolutely blew up, and I have no idea why it did.
It's not a small sort of "blow up" either. It's huge, and it's so weird.
I'm taking this as both a serotonin dose and a good luck omen, along with something F/GO-related lol

And I do need both of those 'cause the rest of the week will be hectic. We have this huge interactive activity thing that we somehow have to pull off in person tomorrow in English (and good luck to me 'cause it's my last class and I absolutely have no energy by then), I have a bunch of extracurriculars (and will have to get up at like 4:30 on Saturday for one of those activities), and homework for the quarter (half semester) is due within the week.
So why am I loitering here, you ask? Well, I don't have common sense.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 4, 2022 19:23:15

Being called "Comrade" in Chinese is so weird. I will never get used to it.
Especially with family.
Or maybe not? A random stranger calling me "Comrade" might be weirder...I dunno how the mainland goes about that, though.
Well, it's better than some things, I guess.

Fun fact! Usually "Comrade" is used in the sense you think it's used for (politically by people in Communist China), but it also can be used to refer to fellow gay people. Or something like that.
It's slang, basically. I haven't heard this myself so there's no example.
The order of the term definitions is the political one first, and then the other one, chronologically speaking. At least from what I know.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 4, 2022 19:26:20

I just forgot something again, but I do know that 5 seconds before I forgot it, I was thinking "Well, if I forget this, at least it won't be important," so I am trying to focus on that instead.

:')

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 4, 2022 19:29:35

Proofreading is great y'all, I nearly turned in an assignment having typed "skin" instead of "sky"
The context is not as bad as, say, accompanying descriptors like "stretched and bloody," but still.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 4, 2022 19:39:00

Oh I remembered the unimportant thing
Just politics/school-related stuff lol

I'd been volunteering at a lil shack that sells snacks and another guy came in at the last hour. Apparently, he was a junior, but I can't tell who is in what grade now that I've been online for a while. Anyhow, we chatted because we had no customers, and he brought up the topic of Roe v. Wade being overturned...just to say that as a guy he doesn't really have an opinion he can voice on it, which was kind of funny to me because I can't relate to that sort of thought. Maybe it's just my view of things, though.
The funny parts were mostly just confirmation that the upperclassmen still look down on freshmen (a staple of school culture where I am btw) as well as him bringing up a topic on his own accord only to basically say "No comment" lol. Super amusing.

-Galaxian-

Echowo · October 4, 2022 19:45:15

NPC Energy

GalaxianExplosion · October 4, 2022 19:52:20

Oh my goodness Echo xD, bruh

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 6, 2022 19:01:24

I'm in this weird state of mind where I have no idea if I'm actually being productive or if I'm not

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 7, 2022 00:01:49

Mom really did just make me yawn 12 times from contagious yawning and then leave

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 7, 2022 00:02:08

13 times now
What the heck, how does this even work
I'm basically crying but without the emotions :')

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 7, 2022 23:45:39

Just stopped procrastinating on an AP Lit FRQ and lemme just say,,,

Yeah no, I'm not gonna say anything. That's my opinion, yep.
Anyways! Pretty productive homework-wise. And waking up tomorrow morning at 5 (different from what I said before) will probably be nice, since I still have to do homework when I get back.
But in any case, I will probably not come here Sunday and Monday until I get work done. And on that note, it looks good. As long as I don't just kinda screw myself over, I should be okay. But yeah, I can't respond to anything for now. Just not gonna risk it either way.

I'm not too sure how I've been feeling these days tbh. In real life, I feel fine. But there's some weird feeling when I come here that I don't know how to describe. So that might be jutting in once in a while, I dunno.
Feelings on that aside, hope you guys have a good weekend! See you around as always.

-Galaxian-

GalaxianExplosion · October 8, 2022 01:05:25

48 SQ and a dream of NP 2 Ashwatthama

NP 3 Nightingale
NP 5 Nursery Rhyme

I am so screwed.

-Galaxian-