Hint: Most of the time it's gonna be the bastard I'm talking about. I think.

-Galaxian-

What the heck did Fandom do to its logo lol

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Lol not me realizing for the hundredth+ time that the type of calligraphy and cursive I do in both Chinese and English will not work for a signature and still not practicing a signature I need to sign

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I think my mom, without realizing it, named me thinking I'd grow up and become a sorcerer
(*stares at paper*) 'Else, who'd be able to write this quickly?

-Galaxian-

Tbh a signature can be whatever you want. I don't think it should be a thing you need to practice

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Tbh a signature can be whatever you want. I don't think it should be a thing you need to practice

I agree on it being what I want. The problem is, what do I want? xD I can't just print my name as a signature. And without practice, there's no way I can make anything that looks even remotely okay out of my name. And without practice, I don't think I'll ever know what I want lol I understand this so I should write more,,, but haha, I'm dumb in this way.
I will definitely end up overcomplicating this, but hey, if I can tell someone's trying to forge my signature because "that one curve that symbolizes rising and self-growth was done wrong," maybe that'll be a good thing somehow xDD

I actually am under a little bit of stress because my mom's signature is positively beautiful, and I'm kinda competitive lol. Not competitive as in I want to make mine better than hers (because I think that's impossible), but as in I want to make something that can at least show on the bottom line underneath hers haha

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I mean another option is that you could take parts of your name and stylize them, it doesn't really have to be your name but also I've heard that in the States it's common to use names as signatures?
Tbh take your time. Procrastinate a little, don't force yourself to come up with something on the spot. You do have several years to come up with something xD.

Yeah I do! I was convinced I still had another year to prepare, but lol I had to do it this year and,,,uh,,,I think I'm confident nobobdy can forge the horrible handwriting in my signature xD. I definitely did practice, lol, I just feel that the final product could've been a whole lot better.

Keep up the talk about the signatures if you guys want btw, I just kinda need a place to talk about things that I'm not as comfortable talking about elsewhere, even on other homethreads.

Well, I guess this message is kinda more pessimistic than I was aiming for. Not that I'm usually a bundle of optimism, but I still like to think that I'm somewhat realistic. Like, me complaining about constructing a signature is actually kind of rational, and it's not like I'm really bothered by it. I just...well, excuses, excuses, lol, but it's hard, I think. But I'll definitely say that I'm okay with what I have so far and think it'll work out by the time I do actually have to go by a solid signature.

Anyways, I guess my mental health has taken a dip. It's kind of normal. I usually have mood swings and stuff like that sometimes, but this sort is also more rational, and so it's not a huge dip. And I know the reason.
I've long guessed that my school will not mandate masks and social distancing, and that's why I chose remote learning again, even though it (remote learning) digs chunks out of my mentality a lot. And of course, I didn't trust my schoolmates to follow the mandates correctly, and I still don't.
Anyways, my prediction is true. Other than on transportation, my school district isn't mandating masks or social distancing. And...well, the decision...it should be insignificant, but for me it's more like a pillar of belief I had just collapsed.
I feel disillusioned to a degree. Elsewhere in America and in the world, I've seen horrible decisions being made in the name of concepts like "liberty." I guess I didn't think that those decisions would hit so close to home, literally. Well, at least, that was what I had hoped.
And I know, this has been going on for a while, but I've avoided news and things like that so to avoid making myself upset. I even haven't googled "U.S. COVID-19 deaths" in a while, and I used to do that almost every day. All regarded, it's a stupid thing to do when one regards realism and all that, but the truth is I'm not strong enough to learn what's happening and take the brunt of the emotions while not being able to do anything.
The other day on the news, I read that unless America sees a "larger than substantial death toll," then it's unlikely closings will happen again. That sentence and wording struck particularly hard because--is the death toll currently not "substantial"?
Six hundred twenty thousand people have died in the U.S. alone. Add a few ten thousand, and that will be the population of Washington, D.C. in 2020. If a bomb wiped out the capital and all its inhabitants, is this how America would react? Is that how any country would react? Yet here the country still is, along with others, denying science, being selfish, and hating inconvenience to the point of endangering everyone in their proximities. Here my school district is, in a state I thought could maybe do a little better than the rest of this nation, claiming that since kids don't usually die from the disease, masks and social distancing--two of the most effective measures that have worked regardless of vaccines existing or not--aren't required. Only recommended.
And if you're wondering, no, vaccinations aren't required either. I would be less ticked about this if mask-wearing were at least mandated.
The entire situation isn't what's stupid, it's the response to it, the inefficient, stupid response, that's stupid.
And it's stupid that I'm letting my disillusionment in these stupid human beings get in the way of my relationships with people who I care for and who aren't the people I resent.

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"A survey found that unvaccinated Americans are less likely to wear masks and avoid crowds, the Kaiser Family Foundation reports."

Why would they need a survey to know this? / No (crap) Sherlock / duh lmiao
moment

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There are some subjects that I myself don't like seeing brought up over and over again, so I want to understand that and exhibit that understanding in my own homethread. Sure, there are supposed to be less restrictions, but sometimes I feel like something I say might ruin someone's mood or their day, and that's just not warranted most of the time. Some self-control is good in any regard.
I guess I can hope that all of y'all share some similar mindset, but some of y'all I don't know very well, and you don't talk about it. It's fine if you don't talk about it, because different people like talking about different things (and you could also be avoiding the situation like I was), but in case you guys haven't noticed yet, I like knowing as much as I can when it comes to things and people I'm concerned about, and when they don't volunteer that information I get worried. xD Don't mind me. I just...well, I want to know that I can hope for the best, but you don't have to mind that. Just know there's someone out there who cares for you, even if in a weird way (and also in a way they really suck at expressing and showing correctly lol).
And...well, continuing to respond would just undermine why you (Specter lol) responded in the first place. Unneeded. And selfish. So I'll stop typing here. Just know it's not anything directed towards anyone here, just opinions that don't need to be expressed.

-Galaxian-

Lol you know when someone you need a response from just vanishes because they're on vacation now and didn't tell you and you have to go to a place where your account was deleted out of alleged inactivity and scour through their messages to see that they told others, just not you and others like you, of course, and you just don't feel like you ever mattered to them, lol
And you really don't care about that at this point tbh, in all honesty you just want a response to get things over with lmiao
Mistakes, mistakes lol

-Galaxian-

You're definitely not stupid; thinking about all of the death and suffering that's caused the pandemic (as well as some people's dismissal of it) is upsetting, and crying about it is absolutely understandable
It really stinks that there isn't a much else I can do, but please remember that your feelings are always valid

Me, forgetting to take out the plug to my mom's computer (because it was at low battery and I plugged it in just before dinner) and knowing it's definitely overcharged by now, running over to the plug:
My mom, with her back turned: I took out the plug while we were eating dinner
Me:
Me: Oh
Me: Thank the heaven and the earth (this is a saying in Chinese btw lol)
My mom: You shouldn't be thanking the heaven and the earth, you should be thanking your mom, who pulled the plug out
Me: I don't see anything wrong with what I said; you're my heaven and my earth after all <3
My mom:
My mom: you devious little child
Me: :D

-Galaxian-

Saw some group advocating against mask mandates in schools because it's one of the causes of mental health issues in children
Look, saying this sounds controversial even to me, but if a bit of depression and panic attacks on my part can save someone's life out there, it's worth it. I'll rant, sure, but it's worth it. A week or month or year of mine that's slightly dark in exchange for someone who can live decades more, or even a few more years, yeah?

-Galaxian-

You know when you open a new browser window and then immediately forget why you did that

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