I shall

They're doing a kahoot that involves history and Wiley yells out numbers instead of historical figures

Lol today at dinner my mind went:
"Hey, Hitan's loved ones aren't really important towards determining his morals, really. They're important for how he views his own personality. You see, for instance, talking about GGaD!Hitan, Helen's important for shaping his personality because she's the one who prevents him from turning into an emotionless machine that wants to keep fighting, keep getting stronger, to the point where he could at least destroy Akuma if he destroyed himself. Her existence doesn't mean that he's fundamentally against violence unless needed, no. Her existence means that he thinks about how she would think if he turned into someone--or something, that couldn't smile, didn't talk unless "needed," and did nothing other than train and fight all the time. Really, that's why Helge is Helge--he doesn't have anyone to make him think that having a personality where he can smile at others and talk with them is important, but he also doesn't have so big a threat to his existence where he needs to turn into a machine where strength is truly the only priority, so that's why he's a wandering phantom with no reason for existence. And that's why Akuma keeps Helen alive--because even though perhaps, once, if she died, Hitan would give it something to look forward to in terms of reactions, anything else after that would be boring as heck. And that's also why Akuma possessed Kaori even when Hitan's personality was far from what it currently is--because it knew what would happen in what would be called 'now,' where technically two reasons for Hitan 'existing' exist, but neither of them are things he can truly keep. It makes him fight and try to get stronger, but not to the extent where he can truly get 'strong enough' and afford to actually 'dream,' because he is entrapped within two realities, both of which are cruel."
And I was like, "Oh yeah, thanks, mind. The moral lesson is 'I hate Akuma.' And??"

-Galaxian- 

When they were younger, a decade ago, Hitan always gave the best he had to Kaori. He didn't have much, but he tried. He made the weirdest things. He made a cotton butterfly and did huge-scale drawings on the sand. That is to illustrate, what separates "Hitan" from "Helge" is that Helge is someone who realizes the importance of protecting himself, even if that means shutting off all others. Hitan is someone who realizes the importance but ignores it, deeming it a "priority" unworthy of attention. So, he gives all and the best to those close to him, sometimes maybe even those he doesn't know, not really because he doesn't "deserve" it but because he doesn't "need" anything. Anything is first for others if he can help it.
Ironically, angst is in a similar pattern, though that's out of his control. He'll take all burdens and agony first if he can. Even for Kaori, who is arguably in a more directly perilous position than he at times, the agony will fall on Hitan first before it befalls his friend. It's arguably the first priority of Hitan's that Akuma has taken in mind, and it uses the knowledge well.

-Galaxian-

STOP HURTING ME LIKE THIS WNBWJDJXI

Kaori as guinea pig headcanons(?)

Yayy more character form inspiration :D but it's a Sunday, so no. Goodbye, inspiration. I'll miss you.

-Galaxian-

Lmiao just learned how bacteria is used to treat wastewater and at the end it's killed off by chlorine, UV light, etc., and in response, Sunny said in my mind with the most deadpan expression: "They are used by humans, and then killed by the very entities who used them. Much like humans higher in the hierarchy who use the lower ones in the laboring classes, right?" And I'm like "FJIDFJSOIFJDOF" 
Bruh how does one turn that into angst

-Galaxian-

I can say she doesn't suck at school xD
She's a quick learner but she's far from being the best in class lol. 

Y'all were almost going to see a 2-page not-proofread writing excerpt on here that I drafted within 30 minutes but common sense took over at the last minute so yay y'all don't get to see it, at least not until I proofread it and then let it sit for a week

-Galaxian-

Kinda ignore me lol, but I've kinda been lapsing back to 2018 in general, though there are some parts of me that can't change back.
I kinda miss how I was in 2018--I was cringe, sure, but I was a lot more readily excited. I remember being super anticipating towards others writing out incorrect quotes involving my characters. Though, I do still have a lot of anticipation when others mention or talk about my characters in general, so I guess I do still have such enthusiasm. I just don't show it as much, maybe as much as I want? I dunno.

-Galaxian-

One of the twins (Not-NPC and her twin sister) is essentially a small conwoman and the funny thing is I can't tell which one of them it is, which makes it all the more ironic and hilarious

-Galaxian-

I'm trying to decide which part of my mind to listen to--the part of my mind that loves irony or the part of my mind (the logical part) that knows Akuma deserves nothing nice
This is about a name of theirs btw. It's a very nice one imo, so that's why the irony-loving part of my mind is like "UwU That is their name" while the logical part is like "No."

-Galaxian-

I don't know the name but my mind is supporting the irony-loving part of your mind.

I'm pretty sure Akuma is like my most recent character with the most names; they basically have a different name for each universe
Otherwise it'd be Xuqiao I think, and Lianhuan maybe. But their names are staying Xuqiao and Lianhuan unless I have an epiphany

-Galaxian-